did you know that….

Phenylethylamine

                    = is a chemical cousin to amphetamines and is secreted by the nervous system when we first fall in love. PEA is what makes our palms sweat, our tummies flip over, and our hearts race. The more PEA the person you want has pumping through the bloodstream, the more likely he is to fall in love with you.

(Hmmmm……….I wonder, what can possibly trigger secretion of PEA to the nth level ?)

naked

I wake up in the morning
Put on my face
The one that’s gonna get me
Through another day
Doesn’t really matter
How I feel inside
This life is like a game sometimes

I’m so naked around you
And I can’t hide
You’re gonna see right through baby

First Day Funk!!!

Yesterday  was not supposed to be my first day in school. It should have been last monday. But bacause of the ongoing enrolment process, my classes last Monday and last wednesday  were cancelled.

I was having difficulty pulling my self up because I felt so tired. I had work the other night and I only had 5 hours of sleep. But that’s ok. This is the price I need to pay if I want to materialize my goals(hehehehe!)

There were 8 of us who were present.Our class was supposed to start at 6pm but guess what? I never thought my   instructor is an early bird. We started the class 10 minutes before schedule.

His name is Graeme. I don’t know if I got his name spelled correctly. He is 24 years old and  single (ehemm!!!) He’s kinda cute ( at least I have something to look forward to….hehehe) and he looks mabango as well..(i know jewit is already laughing while reading this…). Kaya lang…seryoso masyado..feel na feel nya job description nya.

Anyway, when he arrived, he immediately passed around the course syllabus. Imagine, ala ng introduction. Klase agad! Upon checking the course outline, I can’t help but be overwhelmed of the topics.’ Andami kaya!

Umandar pagkasutil, I raised my hand to give a comment. I said, ” Sir, the syllabus is kinda overwhelming and that it seems so tedious.” He laughed. I did not expect that since I was serious upon saying it!

While he was discussing the outline, he turned to me and asked me about quantitave reseach, ” Miss Overwhelming, what do you think about quantitative research?” Patay! Buti na lang may baon din naman akong sagot. Muntik na ako dun ah! Pero in fairness, i already made an impression, hehehe!

Later, after we discussed the grading system, umandar na naman ako. “Sir, aren’t we going to introduce ourselves?” ‘Di ko akalain na makapal pa rin pala mukha ko!

We got to know each other’s names  and our background. I feel comfortable with my classmates  now unlike the previous class that I had. Mga maloko din, gaya ko.

I know that this is just the start. A lot of struggles will come my way but what the heck! A girl’s gotta do what she gotta do.

So help me God!

la lang…

“When I lost you, I was the one who loved you most, but between us you lost more… For someday I can love someone the way I loved you… But you will never be loved again the way that I did.”

CAN’T LOSE WHAT YOU NEVER HAD

This has been one of my favorite songs. Not only that it has a nice melody but I can also relate to its message (char!). Hope you will like it as well.

Baby, you’re so beautiful
And, when I’m near you, I can’t breathe
A girl like you gets what she wants
When she wants it
You’re so out of my league

I show you no emotion
Don’t let you see what you’re doin’ to me
I imagine the two of us together
But I been livin’ in reality

Fear of rejection
Kept my love inside
But time is running out
So damn my foolish pride

(Chorus 1:)

I don’t care if you think I’m crazy
It doesn’t matter if it turns out bad
I’ve got no fear of losin’ you
You can’t lose what you never had
Now, I’m gonna confess that I love you
I been keepin’ it inside, feelin’ I could die
Now, if you turn away, baby, that’s okay
At least we’ll have a moment before you say goodbye
You can’t lose what you never had

Rules are made for breakin’
Nothing ventured, nothing gained
I’ll be no worse off than I am right now
And I might never get the chance again

Fear of rejection
Kept my love inside
Told my heart I didn’t want you
But I lied

(Chorus 2:)

I don’t care if you think I’m crazy
It doesn’t matter if it turns out bad
I’ve got no fear of losin’ you
You can’t lose what you never had
Now, I’m gonna confess that I love you
I been keepin’ it inside, feelin’ I could die
Now, if you turn away, baby, that’s okay
At least we’ll have a moment before you say goodbye

(Bridge:)

Here on the outside, lookin’ in
Don’t wanna stay dreamin’ ’bout what could have been
Need to hear you speak my name
Even if you shoot me down in flames

(Repeat chorus 1)

You can’t lose what you never had
You can’t lose what you never had…

Malapascua Memories

              We had our first team outing last March 17 of this year. It was a triple birthday treat coming from me, from Francis and from our “pretty’ supervisor, Voltaire. I planned to post these pictures a long time ago but as what I always say,” busy kau ko! (char!)”. This has been long overdue. Anyway, as they say, it’s better late than later…hehehe!

            Check out the pics and see how kiat we were…..

beep!beep!beep! and sabi ng bus! ( di ba jeep to? whatever!)

say SEX everybody……………SEX!!!!!!

family picture with the pets on the side…

  And the finalists are…..        Kagwapa jud namo ni saia oi!!!

     the darlings of the team…

 the darling of the team together with “pretty” and “marina with a mask” 

Malapascua at its finest…

     great view!                                       nice!nice!nice!

bleh!

     project!!!                                    ”unsa to?”

ang ganda ko…feel na feel ng long hair ko……

   tres marias (1)???                        tres marias (2)???

picture! picture!

Damn!

Galit ako…galit ako….galit ako…..galit ako….

Ito na lang ang paulit-ulit na lumalabas sa bibig ko. I am not a crybaby. I only cry when I am pissed. I only cry when I feel frustrated.

I wanna cry.

Do you know how it feels to be sorrounded by idiot forms of life who can’t do their damned jobs? Do you know how it feels to be played at? Do you you know how it feels to be affected by other people’s stupidity? Do you know?

I am pissed.

I am already on the verge of breaking down and wanna throw things..

If only I can do that  to appease this anger that I am feeling right now.

I wanna shout at the top of my lungs and cursed them all.

Damn!

the other side of Anggie

 Angelina Jolie

             ”We come to love not by finding the perfect person, but by learning to see an imperfect person perfectly.”

***awwwww…..( I never thought Anggie could be this mushy…..)***

Untitled…

              When I was about to go to the office, it rained so hard that I was having difficulty getting a ride. Putsa! Baha na naman! Good thing though was, I still have money to take a cab. Ang basa ko kaya! Nakakainis. Ayoko pa naman sanang magdala ng payong . Heto pa. Si manong driver, bago pa ‘ata sa trabaho. Di alam kung saan kami pupunta. Hay naku! Kung mamalasin ka nga naman!Basa na nga, late pa!

       While I was thinking of my alibi as to why I was late, the song of Toni Gonzaga (We belong) was being played on the radio. The song goes like this:

 I’ve tried to tell you
So many times this feelings of mine
But it’s not that easy
Letting you know
How i love you so

complete me, you complete me
I’ve never felt this way
Complete me, you complete me
Like words and melody

Don’t you know that we both belong, baby
Don’t you know that we will last forever
Don’t you know that we both belong
I knew it from the start

Hoping that someday
For that hello, just a simple hello
And maybe tomorrow
I’m the reason you’ll smile
And you make my day

              I can’t help but smile…La lang. I just remembered something. Yesterday afternoon, I updated my friendster account. La lang. Nag-upload ako ng mga pictures ko(which should have been done a long time ago!). When I was done,I checked the updates like sinong may bagong pics and testimonials. Basa, basa then tawa ng konti. Andami na palang pagbabago sa website na ngayon ko lang nakita. Magcheck ba naman ng account swerte na lang ng isang beses sa isang buwan! Tsk!tsk! tsk!

       I was about to logged out when I remembered to send an email to a friend. And then out of my curiosity, I checked ‘his’ friendster account. Curios lang. Pero di pa nangangalahati, I got frustrated. Mano ba namang lahat na ata ng nagtesti sa kanya eh puros babae. I read one and guess what? ‘Di ko alam kung matatawa ba ako or maiinis. Imagine, she was that blunt to tell him how she felt! Gosh! Nakakahiya. I mean, enough na ‘yong alam na nya but the mere fact na pinangalandakan mo pa, that’s another story. Natawa ako. Sabi ko pa, “Shucks! I can’t believe I fell for this guy! Andaming tsiks.” And then I realized something…

        Siguro nga, inggit lang ako. Inggit, kasi I don’t have the same courage and I don’t have the guts to do the same thing. Di ko kayang sabihin kasi I know wala rin namang mangyayari. Sabi ko sa sarili ko, ako rin kaya? Pero something stopped me. I held back. Di ko kaya. Ewan… bahala na si Batman!

Power Puff Girls No More

FRIEND…

       Have you ever thought about the meaning of this word? We go through life and probably never give it a thought. We just take it for granted. I used to do that, until I learned the hard way. Friends are not always all we imagine them to be.

      As a teenager, I grew up with two close friends, two friends I’ll call Buttercup and Blossoms. Yep! We were known as the Power Puff Girls.Three friends ready to save the world!Funny, huh? But it’s true. That’s what other people usually call us.

      I had gone to university with both of them. We had the same course and we lived on the same dormitory. We were even classmates in almost all our clasess except for one or two.We were together almost all the time. In fact, if one is missing, surely everybody will ask why.

      That was before…

      But like what they say, time passes, everything changes. We graduated, found a career of our own, met a lot of different people and…drifted apart.

     One of them got pregnant and is planning to get married soon (or maybe, is married already!). And the other one? We practically live on the same house but acted as if we are strangers from each other. We barely talk. We barely see each other. Maybe because she is just busy…

      What the heck! Why do I kept on giving justifications to all their actions? It hurts. I hurt. But what can I do? Maybe it is high time for me to accept that we will never be the same again. That Power Puff Girls no longer exist.

       It just goes to show that as time passes, we meet many different kinds of people who become our friends during the period we are developing our own identities. And so, those we meet in our very early life may not be the same ones with whom we will share our lifetime memories. In fact, they may not even be the same ones with whom we will share our high-school and college memories. They become our pals, our buddies, our confidantes in our growing years, but they do not necessarily become our lifetime friends.And I learned to accept this reality.

        If you are anything like I am, when you graduated- settling into a career and eventually, have a family of your own- you lost track of many of your old friends. Perhaps, at times you find yourself thinking of those days and trying to recall the wonderful memories, but it isnt the same. You know you have changed, you are certain that everyone else has as well.

        In essence, what I want to impart  is this: True friends are those who will be your shelter when you are cold, a nursemaid when you are sick, a helping hand when you need it, and a shoulder for you to cry on. And if you are indeed a true friend, no matter what happened, you’ll remain loyal and true.

        And hey!I hate to be a bitch but I can’t help but add. The easiest way to loose a friend is to ditch your pals for a guy or a girl , for that matter. Believe me, this really works! 

My Favorite Man…

  The Court Jester

       Your favorite man in tights is funny, a great sport and always keeps you entertained. He’s the Chandler Bing of your kingdom of friends. Whether he’s an artist, actor or activist, he thinks that a Chihuahua is a hilarious house pet and loves to be the life of the party.

       Sometimes it might be hard to get a straight answer out of him, but for anyone who doubts his real feelings for you, the joke is on them. Even though he’s got a great sense of humor, this kind of guy is often very sensitive and caring. But like Chandler, many jokesters are often trying to cover up some unresolved issues. Whether he doesn’t get along with his family or is trying to break into his dream career (acting, for example), be patient with a prince like this. He’ll need your support, but might not always be able to ask for it, seriously.

 I think I already met this guy somewhere……………

Beyond the Embrace…..

I’m crazy for you
Touch me once and then you’ll know it’s true
I never wanted anyone like this
It’s all brand new, you’ll feel it in my kiss
I’m crazy for you

 
      When was the last time that someone gave me a hug? Let’s see…I can’t remember anymore. It’s been like ages sice I last felt someone’s heat engulfed my body in a tight embrace. And I can’t even recall who that person was. What a pity!

       By looking at the picture above, I can’t help but feel a pang of emptiness. I have always dreamed about experiencing this one expression of genuine love. When can I have mine? When will be my time? And with whom shall it be? Questions…questions….When will they be answered? (*sigh*)

  (more…)

Baby Doll frock

Found this on Sky Showbiz website. Kinda like it.

(Hmmm..Do you think I will look good on this?….)

whatever!!!

               While I was checking some websites, I came across a section wherein qoutable quotes of famous celebrites were published. Some of them were funny and very hilarious that I can’t help but laugh out loud. Some were full of sarcasm. There were some that were full of meaning that I can’t help but ponder. Out of  these quotes, I read one that really caught my attention. It was claimed to be from Mariah Carey, the diva herself. I heard a lot of “horrible stories” of her “divadom”, but upon reading this, I can’t help but wonder if all of them were true.

                Here it is. Whether she said it or not, it’s for you to decide.

“Whenever I watch TV and see those poor starving kids all over the world, I can’t help but cry.  I mean I’d love to be skinny like that, but not with all those flies and death and stuff.”  –Mariah Carey

Whatever!!!

Last song syndrome……

 
3rd day………………..

Heto na naman po ako….
Late na akong bumangon ngayon. 11pm sched ko sa work pero almost 10pm na ng akoy bumangon. I don’t know. Tinatamad na ako. Buti na lang, sweldo na..di na ako gaanong magui-guilty magtaxi (hehe!).

The good thing about ridng in a taxi is that you can be alone with your thoughts…..

Nahihiya ako sa sarili ko. Kasi ba naman, inis pa ako kunwari kay LH kasi di sya nagreply sa text ko. ‘Yon pala, nagreply sya, di ko lang nabasa kasi nasa work na ako. Am I too demanding?………………………………………siguro nga. ‘Di ko alam. Basta ang alam ko lang, kahit isang text lang mula sa kanya, masaya na ako.

 Do I sound pathetic? Maybe.
 Am I a hopeless case? ‘Di naman siguro.

While I was on my way to the office, I kept humming a song, that for a while I can’t remember the title. Not until I checked Google….(very resourceful!) Here it is. Hope you enjoy it like I did…..

I TRY
(Macy Gray)

Games, changes and fears
When will they go from here
When will they stop
I believe that fate has brought us here
And we should be together, babe
But we’re not

I play it off but i’m dreamin’ of you
I’ll keep my cool but i’m feindin’

I try to say goodbye and i choke
I try to walk away and i stumble
Though i try to hide it, it’s clear
My world crumbles when you are not near

I may appear to be free
But i’m just a prisoner of your love
I may seem alright and smile when you leave
But my smiles are just a front, just a front, hey

Here is my confession
May i be your possession
Boy i need your touch
Your love kisses and such
With all my might i try
But this i can’t deny, deny

another night, another day….

2nd day……….

(**yawn**) Inaantok pa ako. Naiimagine ko tuloy ang kama ko……kundi sana umiral katangahan ko, di sana ang ganda na ng tulog ko ngayon. Hmmp!!!

Masakit ang hinalalaki ko. Mano ba namang gamitin ang sariling kamay para buksan ang isang lata ng century tuna…..Iba pala talaga ang epekto ng pinagsamang gutom at antok, ano? Ang lakas ng dugo, grabe! ‘Kala ko tuloy, mamamatay na’ko.hehehe! (exxaged  naman masyado! )

Eto pa ang ikinaiinis ko….di nagreply ang gago!!! (sino???) Kakainis….ang sarap awayin….pro ang tanong dyan…may karapatan ba ako? ha?ha?ha? Hay, naku! Ewan ko ba. Tanga lang siguro talaga ako. (Ilang ulit ko na bang naidescribe ang sarli ko ang salitang ‘to? OMG! )

Sino ba ‘tong tinutukoy ko? Itago na lang natin sya sa pangalang “Lang Hiya”. I met him way back in college pa. Halos 6 years na na rin ang lumipas (6 years na ba? I’m not sure but based on my calculations, almost 6 years na.) . He is………let’s see. I think, he is ok. (hehehe! ‘yon lang?) To be honest, I don’t know. He is an ok-kind-of-a-guy. Pwede na….pwede na maging dyowa. But here’s the catch………………may dyowa na syang iba! Sakit!!!!!!

BTW, I am  happy kasi I received another 100% CSAT survey today. Yesss!!!! May extra money na naman ako….

My supervisor invited me to go to Moal Boal and Kawasan this weekend. I would really love to go. Pro ang problema, ala akong extra money. Hmmp! Sayang! I really wanna go. I heard ang ganda pa naman dun…Pro mas maganda pa rin ang Tinago Falls (’alang katulad!).

‘Ala lang…just wanna share with you this cute pic that I found online. Ang cute di ba?

<ganito ang itsura ng magiging baby ko…(ambisyosa!hehehe!!!)>

Here At Last………………….

Hi, there!

Sa wakas, andito na rin ako. Antagal ko na kayang gustong magkablog pro di mangyari-yari. Meron na sana sa blogspot (friend ko pa talaga ang gumawa!)pero sa laking kamalasan , palaging ganito ang lumalabas…

O, di ba! Sino ba namn ang di maiinis. But then again, if there is a will…there is a way! Hehe! I guess I outsmarted the IT pipol this time around (hurray!!!)

To start with, let me introduce myself. My name is Michelle. But I would prefer that you call me Sheng. Why? E, pano andami ba namang Michelle sa world. lahat na lang ng klase. Hay, naku! Ba’t ba naman kasi sa dinami-dami ng name, Michelle pa ang naisipan ng tatay ko (sabi nya kasi, nuon ‘yong time na nauso ang kanta ng Beatles na Michelle, whatever!!!!) Pero come to think of it, ok na rin ‘to. Sweet namang pakinggan ang pangalan ko di ba? Kesa naman pangalanan akong Magdalena ( to which  one of my previous professors in College used to call me! Can you just imagine how embarrassed I was?)

I am a Travel Specialist ( Sosyal!….Actually I am a travel agent in a call center). An I’m proud to say that pang-international ang beauty ko. Kausap ko sa magdamag ang iba-ibang klase ng tao sa buong mundo. Mantakin mo ba namang halos bunuin ko ang 11 oras na kakadada at kakausap sa mga amerikanong wala na yatang ibang magawa kundi tumawag ng tumawag! Hay, naku! Syanga pala, sa blog na ‘to di ako gaanong mag-eenglish, ha? Kasi ba naman, nakakasawa rin. Sa trabaho, ganun na lang palagi. At least dito, maiba naman. Mano ba namang gamitin ko ‘yong napag-aralan ko sa Filipino, at isa pa, ano na lang ang sasabihin sa akin ni Sir Art (teacher ko sa Filipino nong HS. Di sa pagmamayabang, Best in Filipino ata ‘to! hehe) ?

Speaking of work, ewan ko ba, ala na atang mas tatanga pa sa akin. Akalain mo ba namang nakipagpalit ng schedule ng di nag-iisip. Hayun, kayod-kalabaw ako ng 6 na araw. Isipin mo ba namang 11 oras, 6 na araw at graveyard pa!!! Tingnan ko lang kung anong magiging resulta. Feeling ko tuloy, pag nakalimang araw na ako para na akong zombie nito. Sa susunod kasi, mag-isip-isp muna ng di napapasubo (pagalitan ba ang sarili!) Pero sa ibang banda, okay na rin siguro to kasi enrolment ko naman next week tsaka darating pa tatay ko. At least, may oras ako.

Yup!Yup!Yup! I’m going back to school. I’m taking up my masters. Actually, secon sem ko na. ‘Ala lang. Gusto ko lang. Para naman, pag naisipan ko nang maghanap ng ibang trabaho, may maipagmamalaki na ako. Enrolment na nga namin next week, eh. I’m just hoping  na di ko na maging classmates ‘yong mga nakasama ko last sem (hep!hep!hep!issue ba ito?)

Nabanggit ko na ba na may anak na ako? Yup! You heard it right! He is 8 months old. Ubod ng kulit pero napakalambing naman. His name is Bo but I usually call him Doydie. Actually, marami syang pangalan. Lahat na nga ata ng names na maririnig ko, itinatawag ko sa kanya. Ang pinakaayaw ko lang sa lahat ng antics nya e ‘yong palagi syang nangangagat. Ay, naku! Andami na atang nasirang gamit ang asong ‘to, mapatsinelas hanggang mapastuff toy. Opo. Aso po ang tinutukoy ko. ‘Kala nyo kung ano na no? Hehehe!. ‘Ndi nga magkaboyfriend, anak pa kaya?

Speaking of which, bakit nga ba? I mean, pretty naman ako (according to my papa), matalino naman ako (talaga!), mabait at super sweet (eheemmm!) pro ba’t ganun? Ba’t ala? Hay, naku, mantakin ko mang isispin, e sa wala talaga, anong magagawa ko? pro sana naman, dumating na sya…..kung sino man sya (**sigh**)…

patience please

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