kakapoy oi!

where do I go from here?

This is the question that I keep on asking myself these past few days. Another year has passed and I’m still here….waiting for what? Nothing, I’m afraid.Everone is on their heels, getting their destinies fulfilled, yet here I am, wallowing on my thoughts in misery.

I am working my ass off 4 nights each week. Each night seems sooooooo long that I keep on controling myself from pressing the headset button to end my agony.

Three days in a row I try to get my brains to work (going to school, that is!). Termpapers, reports and a lot of paperworks - I loved it before but now they have lost their appeal on me.

When did I start feeling this way? I don’t know. I can’t even remember what started it.I feel like I’m experiencing mid-life crisis on what supposed to be the prime of my life. But for heaven’s sake, I am only 24!…tsk!tsk!tsk!

I feel like I’m going nowhere. I feel so empty. I feel so tired. My batteries are drained and I feel so worn out.

Jaded. yeah. That’s me.