shet!!!

How is it possible for love and hate to be so closely knitted that you cannot determine the beginning nor the end of each emotion?

Is it really possible to love a person merely by thoughts and not by heart?

How can one deal an emotion so strange that one can’t even name such feeling?

How can one fight an urge that is larger than life?

I hate what I am feeling right now.

I am torn between wanting and turning away.

Hearing his name keeps on reminding me of how stupid I have become.

People may know how I feel, but they will never understand how deep nor how frustrating it is .

I am tired.

I am so tired in fighting that I wanna be free from him, free from his memories ……

I’m drowning by such strong emotions that I can’t hardly breathe….

I wanna be sane again….and hopefully, sane I shall be.

(grrr!!! tua ra! gadrama na pod! shet!)