He’s back!

Yeah, I know.
I’m singing the same song again.
I can’t help but smile for no apparent reason.
I don’t mind if I only have 3 to 4 hours of sleep.
I don’t care if I have a lot of other things to do.
I can’t think straight.
I’m  a total mess.
And it is because of one simple truth.
He’s back.
I am over him.
Or I thought I was.
Before, I was the one who clamored for his attention.
Attention that I never got.
And here he comes acting so strange.
Strangeness that I  cannot fathom.
He is giving signals that I don’t wanna misread.
But why now?
Now, that I am ok.
Now that I feel everything is going my way.
I feel that the forces of nature is conspiring against me.
Crap!
I feel like a mold stuck in a never-ending staircase.
I don’t wanna go that way again.
But how am I gonna stop myself from looking back?
Help!