warning!!!!!!
June 28, 2006
kas-a na lang jud………
naglagot na baya ko………
gamay na lang………………..
nag-ayo tingali nga makatilaw……
gisapot nako ganina pa…………….
mkairita na…………………………………..
wa na ko ganahi…………………………………
last call syndrome….
June 25, 200615 minutes before logging out…..toot!!!
sheng: Thank you for calling _________. My name is Iris .Is there any reservation I can help you with today?
caller: Hi! I have a case number for you.
sheng: May I have it please? (shit!)
pulled up case regarding flight schedule change. she is calling about refund for her flight due to airline schedule change. cald the airline and spoke to someone from manila (small world!), assured agent of the refund for the 1 way ticket then transferred call to a number where nobody was available to answer. went back to caller.
sheng: maam, let me advise you that previous agent assured me of a refund but to complete the process, you need to call us back on monday since their refunds department is closed.
caller: WHAT???? i can’t do that……..( next were litany of complaints….the usual…)
sheng: I understand your frustation….(came next were sugarcoated words laced with sarcasm…)
ENDING???????
logging out 1 hour later! What a day!!!!!!! 
I’m a big girl in a big, big world…
I’m about to embark into a new chapter of my life - being a postgraduate. I admit that when I took this challenge, the difficulties and adversities that will come my way were far from my mind. The emotions that were present were of excitement and eagerness.
Yup! I miss going to school.I miss my collegues, my professors and most of all my crushes ( toiinnk!!!). Although I admit I am not the best of a student that you could imagine, but hey! for someone who was able to evolve and create her own dynasty in a place called “university”, what would you expect?
During my undergrad years, I could say I belong to the best…the best batch of the neurotic, psychedelic people of the psychology department. We turned the most difficult happenings into enjoyable ones. We got to experience trying times during happy days and vice versa. Yeah….those were the times. Those years are the well spent years of my life, a life with the lunatics who bring out the best (and the worst!) in me.
Enough of the trip down the memory lane….
Back to the real world.
Got 4 major classes to handle…a lot of journals to read,deadlines to beat and diverse kinds of people to adjust to. And not only that, working my ass during nights. I’m already counting the coming number of sleepless nights.
Whew! This means a lot of effortt. E-f-f-o-r-t! A lot of it. But then again, I can handle it. I know I can. I’m a big girl now, remember?
should have, would have, could have
I should have had the courage to stand my ground
To be what I wanted to be not what you expected me to be
If I could have, I would have been
A success in my own eyes
Instead of a failure in yours
I should have rejected your standards for my life
And lived only by my own
If I could have, I would have been
Happy and strong
Instead of miserable and weak
I should have done what I thought was right
Not what you said was right
If I could have, I would have
Lived a life that had meaning for me
Instead of a life filled with empty regrets
I should have lived my life for myself
Not for you, others, or society
If I could have, I would have
Enjoyed living and loving
Instead of feeling so alone and unfulfilled
But in the twilight of life
Should haves
Could haves
And would haves
Do no good because they change nothing
And negate the joys I have experienced
The love I have shared
And the beauty I have seen
None of which I am willing to so dishonor.
Copyright 2003 Bobbi Duffy
did you know that….
Phenylethylamine
= is a chemical cousin to amphetamines and is secreted by the nervous system when we first fall in love. PEA is what makes our palms sweat, our tummies flip over, and our hearts race. The more PEA the person you want has pumping through the bloodstream, the more likely he is to fall in love with you.
(Hmmmm……….I wonder, what can possibly trigger secretion of PEA to the nth level ?)
naked
I wake up in the morning
Put on my face
The one that’s gonna get me
Through another day
Doesn’t really matter
How I feel inside
This life is like a game sometimes
Then you came around me
The walls just dissapeared
Nothing to surround me
Keep me from my fears
I’m unprotected
See how I’ve opened up(oh)
You’ve made me trust
Cuz I’ve never felt like this before
I’m naked around you
Does it show?
You see right through me
And I can’t hide
I’m naked around you
And it feels so right
I’m trying to remember
Why I was afraid
To be myself
And let the covers fall away
Guess I never had someone like you
To help me fit in my skin
I’m naked around you
Does it show
I’m naked around you
I’m so naked around you
And I can’t hide
You’re gonna see right through baby
First Day Funk!!!
June 23, 2006Yesterday was not supposed to be my first day in school. It should have been last monday. But bacause of the ongoing enrolment process, my classes last Monday and last wednesday were cancelled.
I was having difficulty pulling my self up because I felt so tired.
I had work the other night and I only had 5 hours of sleep. But that’s ok. This is the price I need to pay if I want to materialize my goals(hehehehe!)
There were 8 of us who were present.Our class was supposed to start at 6pm but guess what? I never thought my instructor is an early bird. We started the class 10 minutes before schedule. 
His name is Graeme. I don’t know if I got his name spelled correctly. He is 24 years old and single (ehemm!!!)
He’s kinda cute ( at least I have something to look forward to….hehehe) and he looks mabango as well..(i know jewit is already laughing while reading this…). Kaya lang…seryoso masyado..feel na feel nya job description nya.
Anyway, when he arrived, he immediately passed around the course syllabus. Imagine, ala ng introduction. Klase agad! Upon checking the course outline, I can’t help but be overwhelmed of the topics.’ Andami kaya!
Umandar pagkasutil, I raised my hand to give a comment. I said, ” Sir, the syllabus is kinda overwhelming and that it seems so tedious.” He laughed.
I did not expect that since I was serious upon saying it!
While he was discussing the outline, he turned to me and asked me about quantitave reseach, ” Miss Overwhelming, what do you think about quantitative research?” Patay! Buti na lang may baon din naman akong sagot. Muntik na ako dun ah! Pero in fairness, i already made an impression, hehehe!
Later, after we discussed the grading system, umandar na naman ako. “Sir, aren’t we going to introduce ourselves?” ‘Di ko akalain na makapal pa rin pala mukha ko!
We got to know each other’s names and our background. I feel comfortable with my classmates now unlike the previous class that I had. Mga maloko din, gaya ko.
I know that this is just the start. A lot of struggles will come my way but what the heck! A girl’s gotta do what she gotta do.
So help me God!
la lang…
June 22, 2006“When I lost you, I was the one who loved you most, but between us you lost more… For someday I can love someone the way I loved you… But you will never be loved again the way that I did.”
CAN’T LOSE WHAT YOU NEVER HAD
This has been one of my favorite songs. Not only that it has a nice melody but I can also relate to its message (char!). Hope you will like it as well.
Baby, you’re so beautiful
And, when I’m near you, I can’t breathe
A girl like you gets what she wants
When she wants it
You’re so out of my league
I show you no emotion
Don’t let you see what you’re doin’ to me
I imagine the two of us together
But I been livin’ in reality
Fear of rejection
Kept my love inside
But time is running out
So damn my foolish pride
(Chorus 1:)
I don’t care if you think I’m crazy
It doesn’t matter if it turns out bad
I’ve got no fear of losin’ you
You can’t lose what you never had
Now, I’m gonna confess that I love you
I been keepin’ it inside, feelin’ I could die
Now, if you turn away, baby, that’s okay
At least we’ll have a moment before you say goodbye
You can’t lose what you never had
Rules are made for breakin’
Nothing ventured, nothing gained
I’ll be no worse off than I am right now
And I might never get the chance again
Fear of rejection
Kept my love inside
Told my heart I didn’t want you
But I lied
(Chorus 2:)
I don’t care if you think I’m crazy
It doesn’t matter if it turns out bad
I’ve got no fear of losin’ you
You can’t lose what you never had
Now, I’m gonna confess that I love you
I been keepin’ it inside, feelin’ I could die
Now, if you turn away, baby, that’s okay
At least we’ll have a moment before you say goodbye
(Bridge:)
Here on the outside, lookin’ in
Don’t wanna stay dreamin’ ’bout what could have been
Need to hear you speak my name
Even if you shoot me down in flames
(Repeat chorus 1)
You can’t lose what you never had
You can’t lose what you never had…
Malapascua Memories
June 17, 2006
We had our first team outing last March 17 of this year. It was a triple birthday treat coming from me, from Francis and from our “pretty’ supervisor, Voltaire. I planned to post these pictures a long time ago but as what I always say,” busy kau ko! (char!)”. This has been long overdue. Anyway, as they say, it’s better late than later…hehehe!
Check out the pics and see how kiat we were…..
beep!beep!beep! and sabi ng bus! ( di ba jeep to? whatever!)
say SEX everybody……………SEX!!!!!!
family picture with the pets on the side…
And the finalists are….. Kagwapa jud namo ni saia oi!!!
the darlings of the team…
the darling of the team together with “pretty” and “marina with a mask”
Malapascua at its finest…
great view! nice!nice!nice!
bleh!
project!!! ”unsa to?”
ang ganda ko…feel na feel ng long hair ko……
tres marias (1)??? tres marias (2)???
picture! picture!
Damn!
June 16, 2006Galit ako…galit ako….galit ako…..galit ako….
Ito na lang ang paulit-ulit na lumalabas sa bibig ko. I am not a crybaby. I only cry when I am pissed. I only cry when I feel frustrated.
I wanna cry.
Do you know how it feels to be sorrounded by idiot forms of life who can’t do their damned jobs? Do you know how it feels to be played at? Do you you know how it feels to be affected by other people’s stupidity? Do you know?
I am pissed.
I am already on the verge of breaking down and wanna throw things..
If only I can do that to appease this anger that I am feeling right now.
I wanna shout at the top of my lungs and cursed them all.
Damn!
the other side of Anggie
June 15, 2006Angelina Jolie
”We come to love not by finding the perfect person, but by learning to see an imperfect person perfectly.”
***awwwww…..( I never thought Anggie could be this mushy…..)***
Untitled…
When I was about to go to the office, it rained so hard that I was having difficulty getting a ride. Putsa! Baha na naman! Good thing though was, I still have money to take a cab. Ang basa ko kaya! Nakakainis. Ayoko pa naman sanang magdala ng payong . Heto pa. Si manong driver, bago pa ‘ata sa trabaho. Di alam kung saan kami pupunta. Hay naku! Kung mamalasin ka nga naman!Basa na nga, late pa!
While I was thinking of my alibi as to why I was late, the song of Toni Gonzaga (We belong) was being played on the radio. The song goes like this:
I’ve tried to tell you
So many times this feelings of mine
But it’s not that easy
Letting you know
How i love you so
complete me, you complete me
I’ve never felt this way
Complete me, you complete me
Like words and melody
Don’t you know that we both belong, baby
Don’t you know that we will last forever
Don’t you know that we both belong
I knew it from the start
Hoping that someday
For that hello, just a simple hello
And maybe tomorrow
I’m the reason you’ll smile
And you make my day
I can’t help but smile…La lang. I just remembered something. Yesterday afternoon, I updated my friendster account. La lang. Nag-upload ako ng mga pictures ko(which should have been done a long time ago!). When I was done,I checked the updates like sinong may bagong pics and testimonials. Basa, basa then tawa ng konti. Andami na palang pagbabago sa website na ngayon ko lang nakita. Magcheck ba naman ng account swerte na lang ng isang beses sa isang buwan! Tsk!tsk! tsk!
I was about to logged out when I remembered to send an email to a friend. And then out of my curiosity, I checked ‘his’ friendster account. Curios lang. Pero di pa nangangalahati, I got frustrated. Mano ba namang lahat na ata ng nagtesti sa kanya eh puros babae. I read one and guess what? ‘Di ko alam kung matatawa ba ako or maiinis. Imagine, she was that blunt to tell him how she felt! Gosh! Nakakahiya. I mean, enough na ‘yong alam na nya but the mere fact na pinangalandakan mo pa, that’s another story. Natawa ako. Sabi ko pa, “Shucks! I can’t believe I fell for this guy! Andaming tsiks.” And then I realized something…
Siguro nga, inggit lang ako. Inggit, kasi I don’t have the same courage and I don’t have the guts to do the same thing. Di ko kayang sabihin kasi I know wala rin namang mangyayari. Sabi ko sa sarili ko, ako rin kaya? Pero something stopped me. I held back. Di ko kaya. Ewan… bahala na si Batman!
Power Puff Girls No More
June 9, 2006FRIEND…
Have you ever thought about the meaning of this word? We go through life and probably never give it a thought. We just take it for granted. I used to do that, until I learned the hard way. Friends are not always all we imagine them to be.
As a teenager, I grew up with two close friends, two friends I’ll call Buttercup and Blossoms. Yep! We were known as the Power Puff Girls.Three friends ready to save the world!Funny, huh? But it’s true. That’s what other people usually call us.
I had gone to university with both of them. We had the same course and we lived on the same dormitory. We were even classmates in almost all our clasess except for one or two.We were together almost all the time. In fact, if one is missing, surely everybody will ask why.
That was before…
But like what they say, time passes, everything changes. We graduated, found a career of our own, met a lot of different people and…drifted apart.
One of them got pregnant and is planning to get married soon (or maybe, is married already!). And the other one? We practically live on the same house but acted as if we are strangers from each other. We barely talk. We barely see each other. Maybe because she is just busy…
What the heck! Why do I kept on giving justifications to all their actions? It hurts. I hurt. But what can I do? Maybe it is high time for me to accept that we will never be the same again. That Power Puff Girls no longer exist.
It just goes to show that as time passes, we meet many different kinds of people who become our friends during the period we are developing our own identities. And so, those we meet in our very early life may not be the same ones with whom we will share our lifetime memories. In fact, they may not even be the same ones with whom we will share our high-school and college memories. They become our pals, our buddies, our confidantes in our growing years, but they do not necessarily become our lifetime friends.And I learned to accept this reality.
If you are anything like I am, when you graduated- settling into a career and eventually, have a family of your own- you lost track of many of your old friends. Perhaps, at times you find yourself thinking of those days and trying to recall the wonderful memories, but it isnt the same. You know you have changed, you are certain that everyone else has as well.
In essence, what I want to impart is this: True friends are those who will be your shelter when you are cold, a nursemaid when you are sick, a helping hand when you need it, and a shoulder for you to cry on. And if you are indeed a true friend, no matter what happened, you’ll remain loyal and true.
And hey!I hate to be a bitch but I can’t help but add. The easiest way to loose a friend is to ditch your pals for a guy or a girl , for that matter. Believe me, this really works!
My Favorite Man…
June 8, 2006
The Court Jester
Your favorite man in tights is funny, a great sport and always keeps you entertained. He’s the Chandler Bing of your kingdom of friends. Whether he’s an artist, actor or activist, he thinks that a Chihuahua is a hilarious house pet and loves to be the life of the party.
This works for you because you’re not looking for someone to take care of you financially or even emotionally. You can do that on your own. What you want is a companion who will see you through the good times and make the bad times a little better (or at least have you laughing through your tears).
Sometimes it might be hard to get a straight answer out of him, but for anyone who doubts his real feelings for you, the joke is on them. Even though he’s got a great sense of humor, this kind of guy is often very sensitive and caring. But like Chandler, many jokesters are often trying to cover up some unresolved issues. Whether he doesn’t get along with his family or is trying to break into his dream career (acting, for example), be patient with a prince like this. He’ll need your support, but might not always be able to ask for it, seriously.
I think I already met this guy somewhere……………
Beyond the Embrace…..
June 4, 2006
I’m crazy for you
Touch me once and then you’ll know it’s true
I never wanted anyone like this
It’s all brand new, you’ll feel it in my kiss
I’m crazy for you
When was the last time that someone gave me a hug? Let’s see…I can’t remember anymore. It’s been like ages sice I last felt someone’s heat engulfed my body in a tight embrace. And I can’t even recall who that person was. What a pity!
By looking at the picture above, I can’t help but feel a pang of emptiness. I have always dreamed about experiencing this one expression of genuine love. When can I have mine? When will be my time? And with whom shall it be? Questions…questions….When will they be answered? (*sigh*)
Baby Doll frock
June 3, 2006
Found this on Sky Showbiz website. Kinda like it.
(Hmmm..Do you think I will look good on this?….)
